I went to the gym for the first time last night. I don't have my goggles or my cap yet but I did get my swimsuit and I gotta say, I love this swimsuit. It was only $30! With free shipping! I can't remember the last time I had a swimsuit that didn't have an underwire so that was weird but I never had clevage issues because the neck comes up pretty high, so that's good. They have different colors so I think I'm going to get at least one more swimsuit.
The last time I remember swimming laps I was in college and I was thin. I can't remember how old I was or what weight exactly but if I had to guess I'd say I was about 24 years old and 150 pounds. And I could swim laps, like real laps, freestyle and everything, for as long as my little heart desired. I guess I thought you never lose that. I was wrong.
I'm not even halfway down the pool and I'm thinking to myself, holy cow, I can't get enough oxygen when I go to take a breath to last to the next breath. What's the deal with this? The second thing I think is OH MY GOD THE LIFEGUARD IS GOING TO THINK I'M DROWNING! And the very very last thing I want is the lifeguard to look at me, I just want to be invisible in the pool. It's the only thing that someone watches you. No one watches the treadmill walkers or the basketball players. I hate this about swimming at the gym. There were no lifeguards I can remember in college. I almost didn't want to join because of it.
I switched to breast stroke. And I felt like a failure. But I breast stroked in that pool for 45 minutes and I wanted to give up after 10. I kept trying to swim freestyle but I could only go a couple of times, not even half a lane. I'm going to keep working on this and working on not freaking out just because there's a lifeguard.
In hindsight however, I'm kind of glad I had trouble with freestyle because my eyes are burning today from the small bits that I did try to do. Googles are a must in the pool.
I need a freaking coverup. The towels are very small and I don't like walking from the locker room around the first pool to the big pool trying to hid my waist with a tiny hand towel.
I need shower shoes. I don't think I have to go into details but the showers stay wet all the time and it doesn't feel right to just stand in that stuff.
I need a change of clothes that aren't yoga pants. It's very hard to put on clothes when you are slightly wet and standing on a wet floor especially when you are dealing with 8% spandex..
I need a better gym bag than one those fold up totes you use for shopping. And I need a lock so I can put my stuff in a locker.
I need shampoo and A COMB. Duh.
I think once I get past my insecurities I'll like swimming more. It was my first time and I was already nervous and then I felt really let down by my body. I felt very strong after swimming, I feel like I hold in my stomach when I swim naturally so my stomach felt stronger. I also realized they have floaty things so you can use them to practice kicking or leg things to practice arm strokes. I frog kick when I breast stroke and I got very sore, it would have been great to use the floaty thing to do regular kicks across the pool to change it up. I also think I'll really like water aerobics. When we get back from vacation I'm going to figure out the schedule so I can try that out.
Also when you are swimming you are really alone with your thoughts. When I work out I always have music or television, sometimes both, I used to read sometimes too, and when you swim you don't get any of that. If I'd stop counting my strokes I could really use that time to think about things, besides, you know, not looking like I'm drowning.